Sometimes I wonder have i grown strong emotionally or am I getting detached from emotions. I've done an extensive test on Personality Traits and i get this under my emotional section.

Neuroticism (Emotional stability)


This trait refers to the way you cope with, and respond to, life's demands. Approximately 16% of respondents have a lower neuroticism raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is calm and emotionally stable. Based on your responses, you come across as someone who is rarely bothered by things, and when they do get you down the feeling does not persist for very long.


Reflective question: When do your emotions (or lack of emotions) get in the way of good decision making?


I guess the answer to that question should be good for military style decision-making but bad for the creative side. I used to think it doesn't matter but as I mix with new groups of people, out of my comfort zone, I realized what has been working for me now may not work in the soon future.

And the next point I've confirmed is that after teenage, a guy would appear much more attractive if he's driven, passionate about his interest and most ideally have a bright future. (Ps. different from rich spoilt brats) HAHAHAH.

Back to the point, I've been through quite a number of shit holes, stood up by myself again, again and again. Important question is, have i grown strong or have I grown detached, numbed and senseless. I didn't feel much about today's disappointment. But that's good for this case as I could quickly move on and seek for more opportunities.

And due to the regret, I'm officially *quite* free for the next one year, which calls for new plans. My friend in Brisbane is inviting me over to her apartment, and I'm thinking it's really a good opportunity. Apparently the cheapest flight there by Qantas is only 700 dollars. But I'm always just talks about such unusual ideas. Ah fuck, I should really stop restraining myself and go for it.